1,2,3,4 some crazy ass kids come and knock up on your door.

So I haven't posted in this in awhile but right now I'm sitting in class and doing fundamental math. ;p But also blogging. Lol, I'm so cool. Today has been a pretty good day so far but you never know. I have recently started talking to this kid named Chad again and he is such a sweetheart, plus Jake, who also is a little sweetheart Jake is 19 and Chad is 17 I think. They're both really sweet but Jake lives farther away than Chad. :/ Which kinda sucks but oh well. I have figured out who my friends are and my bestfriend is definitely Bobbie the builder(;! Everyone else either just mooches off me or lies to me. I'm not going to stand for it anymore. EVERYONE LIES TO ME. BUT BOBBIE AND MY SISTER. Like damn kids, grow up. Oh and Jenny doesn't lie to me either. (: Neither does Chad or Jake. Which is good, right? I mean Jared just used me for sex which is probably the worst thing you can do to someone, I cried myself to sleep for days. And I'm still hurt over it. How can someone act like they care so much and be so genuine about it? Obviously he wasn't.. Fuck that kid! I hate him more than anything. He also hits girls, oh, and that's the "old him" bullshit it is you stupid little prick! I hate guys sometimes. I've known Jake for a few months & I've known Chad for almost a year and a half I think. (: But no, I hate people more than anything now a days because they just look for drama to be started, and START IT. Especially when it is not needed in these kind of situations. I lost my "bestfriend" Charly and she didn't even care that I was gone, shows how much she cared about me. I also lost Johnathan because I wouldn't date him so he went back to his ex who he had a kid with and I just can't take it anymore. Everyone is leaving so I don't even try to make anyone stay anymore.. I really don't care. Fuck people, I don't need anyone.. My mom has been leaving more often which isn't that great because she's supposed to support our family so we hardly ever have groceries in our house anymore we just have shit food that she thinks we like. Because my brother will eat anything because he's the good boy who does nothing wrong but he wakes up late every day for school and doesn't come until second period usually. But if I can't let my dog out in the morning because I'M RUNNING LATE I have to get up earlier, I have to be more responsible, I have to do everything better. He gets it easy and he doesn't see that so he contemplates suicide all the time just to get attention from my mom, I think. I have killed myself over a dozen times in my head but I don't tell mom about that because she doesn't listen. I don't tell anyone. And I'm glad no one reads this blog because people would think I was crazy or something, which I AM NOT. :P I don't think so anyways but everyone thinks I'm bipolar or something, ohhh well. :) I don't care anymore. People can go away if they think I'm weird for saying what's on my mind all the time. I may come off as a bitch, but who doesn't? I'm GOING to tell you what I think about you. I AM. There's no doubt about that. Because I don't give a fuck what you think unless I care about you. No one understands that about me. People think I put on makeup to please other people; no. I put it on to please myself, to like what I see in the mirror; not what others see, because if I thought I had natural beauty, fuck, I'd never wear makeup. But nope! My face has an uneven skin tone and I look sick without any make up on like how I look now. Eh, oh well. People can deal with it today because I feel like ass. I wasn't even up late last night but oh well, lol. I have not gotten my tongue done yet, because I guess it's  breaking the law because I'm not 18 to get my tongue pierced-- but I'm still getting it done. :) Stupid moms friend follows the law; and he's a tattoo artist and piercer. I want to get my first tattoo done by him because he'll do it for cheap!:) I'm so excited. Bleh. Well that's all today; I'll post some pics down there of random shit. :) Like my new hair color and junk! And what it is going to be after I get my piercings, and more pics of what piercings I want and such, idk.


 

The color it is. :(

I want these roses wrapped all around my thigh and I want them to be a deeper red and a darker green for the vines and such. (:



Tattoo I want on my back; with a banner that says fallen under it. (:




THE COLOR I WANT OMNOM



That's it for today, I know no one looks, but love you guys.