To Write Love On Her Arms. ♥

So.. this bliog is going to be about TWLOHA which is a non-profit organization who has helped teens through rough times, I can't say they saved my life but they played a part in it, next to Secondhand Serenade and other various songs and artists. It all started with  a girl named Renee Yohe, she has a story just like all of us. Whether we choose to share it like her is a different subject. I have recently became intriguied in why this organization was made. Which no usual teenager would be, they just think they're here for music when really it's there to save a life. This organization has been saving so many lives around the world and I'm so glad that people aren't feeling as alone as I felt before I found TWLOHA I'm glad it's getting more popular and showing girls and boys that there is HOPE in this place we're supposed to call home. There's always hope. Always someone wanting to be there for you. And if anyone needs someone, if ANYONE needs anyone, I promise I'm always here. Always. No matter if I hate  someone I've learned to be the bigger person and be there when the rest of the world shuts them out because I know how it feels to be shut out of the world, for everyone to turn around and hate you. I only have my mom when that happens. Which is amazing that she's still talking to me even though I've called her every nasty name in the book when I was consumed in my ex boyfriend and my friends. I was a horrible child. I can't believe it. It's almost like it never happened because we don't speak of it, but it defnintely happened. TWLOHA gave me hope in a better tomorrow. And I finally have it, even though I'm still beyond my breaking point. I never realized that until my friend Poohbear/Butternut told me this morning when I was telling her about how I am going to pretend now because I can't go back to genuinely being happy. Her reply was "Ceyerra. I don't even know exactly how you feel. You're beyond your breaking point, and no one knows how that feels." It made me feel so alone, but at least she understands that I'm gone beyond repair. I wish I could come back and be normal me again, the one that was ALWAYS happy, and was always a sweetheart. Obviously something's wrong when I act to happy. But no one ever realized that.. No one. I wish SOMEONE would for once.. SOMEONE.. I'm tired of pretending.. I'm tired of it.. I'm tired of all the liars.. All the bullies that don't understand.. My only hope now a days is my music.. But everyone hates that too.. Plus, people think I'm a dude which makes everything worse. It hurts everytime someone on Omegle goes "Boy or girl?" because I thought I did a damn good job at looking like a girl.. obviously not.. Something is wrong with me.. I need to figure it out.. I don't see me going ANYWHERE in life anymore. I don't know what my future holds and I don't want to know. I'm scared of it. I'm probably just going to be unsuccessful and stuck. Because I try to make things work when I know they will NEVER be.. I need to learn. But I don't know how. Weightless by All Time Low is definitely one of my favorite songs now.. And so is Saving You - Chris Ganim(TWLOHA) oh and Keep your head up by Andy Grammer even though I don't know how to believe in any of that. Also A Time For Yohe by Between The Trees.
Yohe sound familiar? It's about Renee! Between the trees is amazing, literally. I wish I would have known them sooner then just last year.. But oh well.
This would be my post for the day.
♥ Love you guys.

You're alive. ♥