Father, Father tell me where have you been?

 I may be beautiful on the inside. But I'm as ugly on the outside as your heart is in your chest.

Well, let's start off with this. All my life I thought this man was my father, this man that would hit my sister infront of me, this man, that would hit me. The man that went to Iraq for three years, and it really messed up his brain. And in the summer of 2011 guess what I figured out? He.isn't.my.real.dad. This man, that was a convicted felon, is my real dad. And guess what? I love him more then my adopted one. A lot more. Even though I don't tell him, even though I really screwed myself over with him already... Even though.... I am a bad daughter. I love him. And he told me he loves me like I was a part of his life, for as long as mine has been. My adopted dad doesn't have the same love and respect from me, I love him. But there's no respect there. I hate him sometimes too, because he acts like I don't know stuff, about sex, drugs, and money. He acts like I'm stupid. And I know I'm not, so it erks me to even be around him for a long time. He thinks all I want from him is stuff, no. All I want is to be treated like an equal. To be loved like his own flesh and blood. But nope, he has to love my brother more then me. And my mom loves my sister more then me I think, because she doesn't have a dad there for her. My sister think my mom favors me? Nope, her. It's always been her. She's always been the spoiled one. So has my brother. But who do I have to spoil me? My real dad who doesn't have a very good job? No. He can't spoil me. He bought me a laptop for Christmas though, and that's all I wanted from him ever. I don't want his money either, I want love. Someone to love me, and treat me like their daughter, not their maid, or a little kid. I am a young lady. Treat me like one. I love everyone. Literally, I don't hate people. Well I hate one person, but she's not important. :) I have a few that hate me, but most people love me. Because once you get past the scars and the hurt you see in me, you see a very, fun-loving girl. I swear. <3

Beware, you are blinded about the dangers of life, love, sex, and drugs.